through a glass darkly

lyrics of the moment driving sideways aimee mann - bachelor no. 2 (or the last remains of the dodo) at least you know you were taken by a pro i know just how you feel she talked a perfect game deflecting all the blame you took the jack and changed the flat and got behind the wheel— now you're driving sideways taken in by the scenery as you're propelled along and your companion will not help you to navigate for fear she may be wrong and you will say that you're making headway and put it in overdrive but you're mistaking speed for getting what you need and never even noticing you never do arrive 'cause you're driving sideways if you roll down the window you'll see you're where you don't belong and your companion will not help you to navigate for fear she may be wrong and you're powered by the hopeful lie that it's just around the bend and when this, by default comes screeching to a hal let's hope that you know what to do to start it up again driving sideways hitting scan on the radio so she can sing along and she'll sit thinking you're going to handle it until she's proven wrong until she's proven wrong until you prove her wrong

tinker tinker okay, i moved some of my site to php, like the main page and the archive page. it's late and i might have missed something, so let me know if anything breaks.

are you there, god? i got this article from someone on the peugeot e-mail list. it's amazing the lengths to which people will go for a sense of belonging. i mean... marrying your miata?! it seems a far cry from religion, but it's not so different after all. as we become more deeply entrenched in our scientifically-minded world, these kinds of situations begin to crop up. people have needed to believe something since they started drawing on the cavern walls and if they can't find it in science or religion, they'll find it somewhere else. science may make a whole lot more sense, but it doesn't offer much comfort to many people. we talk about it in my anthropology class, human past, and my wine & spirits class (you'd be surprised how much the subject of religion comes up when you're talking about booze). everything from "creation science" to dyonisian revels and it all comes back to the same subject. we're trying to kill god, but then what? now i am not one to be promoting religion. it has been a long time since i found comfort in the idea that there was some deity that created the world to be just like this. but i definitely think there is something to be said for the notion that we still need religion. science is cold comfort when you are pondering the whys and not the hows of the world.

quote of the moment "i feel as tired as a dream that wants to die..." - paul simon

stop this world, i wanna get off i really think i'm losing my mind. i know, i've said that before, but i mean it. why can't i be happy? all of a sudden, i can't sleep tonight and i just want the hurt to stop. i don't know where it came from, but i wish it would go away.

night terrors i don't know who to talk to i don't know where to turn i was fine an hour ago but now my heart just burns with yesterdays unfinished and tomorrows unbegun i was fine an hour ago where did that peace flee? my life is more than misery but joys i now can't see my heart shrinks inside me losing the happiness i've won i was fine an hour ago life was moving just grand now my soul is cringing i just don't understand unhappiness i've known and fought but the battle is never done i was fine an hour ago now i don't want to go on oblivion beckons to me i wish this pain were gone unhappiness i've known and fought but the battle is never done

eh? i ran across this link tonight... things my girlfriend and I have argued about. some people just make me wonder.

javascript joy i had fun with javascript tonight, so if you're checking out the page with pictures of me, let me know if something doesn't work right.